Copeland - Don't slow down

Cause your words hit like a train and I can't ignore it
This moment could be our last
You fall in love and I'm running after
You move way too fast

But don't slow down
And don't let go
Hold me close now, lest I fall
They say I don't know how to love the right way
But you make me feel, you make me feel like I do

You could take everything I have
Just don't leave my side now, don't leave my side

I am really craving an orange hot smoothie right about now. I havent had one in so long. that obsession got replaced by starbucks for a while (seriously, try peppermint mocha and gingerbread latte). then my new obsession was the raspberry hot smoothie (again, very good). now its tea with eggnog instead of milk. this makes me think that eggnog should be sold all year long, or someone should show me how to make it. honestly, its one of the best drinks ive ever tasted. yupyup. anyways, i think im going to leave work soon and grab an orange smoothie. mmm-hmmmmmmmm

My new tango shoes,
They are my treasure. They are so cool.

You can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,and again when your head goes through the windshield.

I wrote a whole post up yesterday, but hit a wrong key, and deleted the whole thing, and I was sad and didn’t want to re-write it, but it's probably for the best, because it was real emo-esque. It’s the hair, I swear to god. Haha. Anyways, today I had the first day of two of my forklift training through school. Only I didn’t realize I still had class in the morning, so I missed class, and was on time for the training. I kind of didn’t want to go, because I realized that I could have taken these two days and worked and made some more pocket money for myself. But oh well, it seems like tomorrow should be good. But back to me missing the first part of the day, I slept through my alarm and stayed in bed till like ten, which I loved since I was so tired, but weird since I went to bed at like eleven last night. Usually I get my seven hours and struggle out of bed, but I was so much more tired. I think it’s because of a lack of vitamins. This is probably due to the fact that in the last 48 hours, I have eaten the following: a bowl of soup, a bagel, and a chicken sandwich. Of course some coffee and that, but still not a lot for the time span, but what makes it weirder is that I'm not even hungry. Hmmmm. Oh well. To the music.

Ok, if you haven’t heard this song, you are missing out terribly. So go do that, and listen to my favourite part, right around the 3:28 mark, where the drum kicks in right after "we slave for days (and weeks)." you should not regret it.

Brand New - The No Seatbelt Song

So, it's sad this doesn't suit you now.
And me fresh out of rope...
Please ignore this lisp, I never meant to sound like this.
So take me and break me and make me strong like you.
I'll be forever grateful to this and you.

It's only you, beautiful.
Or I don't want anyone.
If I can choose it's only you.

Fix me to a chain around your neck and wear me like a nickel.
Even new wine served in old skins cheapens the taste.
I shot the pilot, now I'm begging you to fly this for me.
I'm here for you to use, broken and bruised.

Do you understand?
It's only you, beautiful.
Or don't want anyone.
If I can choose, it's only you.

But how could I miscalculate...
Perfect eyes will have perfect aim.
If I can choose, it's only you.

“We're wrecking” and I'm dry like a drum...when you scream
So fine I'll leave... we're spent... we've got time and trials...
Measured in miles... we slave for days (and weeks).

It's only you, beautiful.
Or I don't want anyone.
If I can choose, it's only you.

But how could I miscalculate...
Perfect lies from a perfect dame.
If I can choose... it's only you.

Jer's-a-posting here again

YO!

It's a day late but still...HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAY!!!

WOOT!!!

....that is all

mmmmusic

So I have been listening to a lot of Coheed and Cambria, Jack's Mannequin, Taking Back Sunday, Jupiter Sunrise, Cauterize and the like, mostly because those are a few of the few cd's I have on my computer at work. Not that I am complaining, its just I fear I may be getting sick of it, I know it happened with The Used already. So yeah, I don’t really know why I’m writing this here, but whatever. I may have to bring back some old school favourites like Alkaline Trio, Brand New, Saves The Day, Thursday, Tegan and Sara, Thrice, maybe even Amazing Transparent Man. That would make me happy, so I’m going to have to track down those cd's and bring them in someday.
All this talk of music is really making me crave a concert. I had so many lined up but they failed me, or I failed me. My American Heart I decided to skip because I figured I would go to Cauterize two days later, only to find out cauterize was cancelled. Then Hawthorne Heights, after fear of it being cancelled from Baysides drummers death, gets back on track, and then sold out. I had totally forgotten about the whole "buy the tickets for the show" part of going to the show. Spill Canvas had some shows with Gratitude, but cancelled all dates but two, in America somewhere. Ull, I think I am just going to have to start my own band so I can have a concert whenever I want. So if you want to be in one, now’s your chance. I need a guitarist, bassist, drummer, keyboardist, vocals and... I can be tambourine or something.

My christmas list pretty much consists of this camera. I was suposed to ask for small stuff, but I already bought what i would have asked for, which would be these tshirts: Take A Hike, For The Birds, Life of Death, Flowers in the Attic (this one reminds me of moneen), Who I Am(personal favourite), My Pet Human. So I am pretty excited for the arrival of those. I wont be able to decide what one to wear first, so if you see me wearing six shirts, it means they came. Check out the site: threadless.

Last night I am walking home, and it’s a little chilly, so I decide to go to dominion again. So i'm walking through the aisles wondering what I should purchase, since I was kind of hungry seeing as I had only eaten a bagel all day. Then I turn down an aisle, feminine products to my right, cereals to the left, and I see this new cereal from oatmeal crisp, vanilla yogurt. It’s like two of my favourite flavours mixed into one, so I decide to give it a shot, and get a couple boxes (it was on sale too, SCORE). So I get home and start munching on it, and soon enough half the box is gone. So I feel; incredibly full for the rest of the night, and go to sleep, wake up late this morning and scramble for lunchy munchies, and I see the box. So I grab it and rush off to work. Well, now that box is gone and I have only one complaint, the fact that when I ate it, I was eating it sans milk. WHERE THE HELL IS MY MILK?

So there is a cauterize concert on Friday that I would very much like to go to, its in Brampton, so I don’t see much trouble there, its just getting people to go. Hmmmmmm, well, I think I will go with no one if it comes to it.

PS. Listen to Cauterize – Still Breathing

Tear me open at the seams.
Take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe, to breathe.

"I'm not cold," she said,
but she's shaking as she's lying next to me naked.
Pulled the hair back from her face to let that smile heat this place.
And this feels so far from real.
I'm lost and I love it.

I can't take it, if you're waiting.
I am ready to tell the world about a girl
who showed me love again for the first time.
And it's everything I dreamed of.

Tell me what you thought about when you were breathing oh so loud,
screaming oh so loud.
Tell me if this is real.
I need to know before I get too close.

So here we lie in this beautiful mess of tangled sheets and beads of sweat.
With my heart in your hand and my neck in the other,
should I be scared or should I come closer?
But it's still beating and I'm still breathing.
You haven't hurt me yet.

Morning always comes too quick when you're around, when you're around.
You leave me lying here so they don't find us out, they'll find us out.
Tear me open at the seams, take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe.

What a weekend. I finally got to see sleeper set sail. I think I’ve missed them twice before, once they were supposed to open for Dallas Green, and I forget the other time, but they were definitely in Toronto. Anyways, the concert was pretty rockin', Latefallens singer is the shit. Parts of his vocals reminded me Adam Lazzara even though the songs are not similar at all. Also sleeper set sail played lifejackets, which totally made my night. Chilled in London till the next day, got zero sleep, but I got to listen to an actual record, that was effing cool. Missioned it back to Georgetown and hit up a party. Well, like twelve people. But it was still fun. Got buzzed real easily for some reason, but it wore off after half an hour, so that kind of sucked. Now I'm bored and tired in Toronto, tried to play some xbox, got fed up. Tried to read, got through one short story. Listened to Underoath and Silverstien, such good records from them. mmm. Anyways, I am going to go to dominion, and get myself some sugarcrisp or something like that.

So apparently it’s November 11. Wasn’t there supposed to be a giant moment of silence or something? I almost forgot, but then our fax machine crapped out at 11:11 so I went to my computer and noticed the time. Naturally I thought of Constantine first. But then I remembered the poppy I found on the ground yesterday. So that was pretty cool, but I still think its odd how everyone, in my office at least, just continued about his or her business like normal. I was talking about this with my mom the other day, saying that this should be a day off, because a whole day to remember would be better, plus there’s no stat in November. She said that people wouldn’t remember and they would just take it as a day off to party. Though that may be true, when I get a free day off, I usually wake up and go "sweet shit i'm in bed, thank you -insert statutory holiday reason here-" as opposed to showing up to work like any other day, and just barely realizing its an important day.
Anyways, I just found out that the job I have to do is actually much simpler than I originally thought, so i’m going to go get that done so I can leave here today even earlier. Huzzah. I’m excited
ps. I got my jacks mannequin shirt in. i’m real happy. Except this one is missing the asterisk on the back. I’m just happy to have something to show my love for the mannequin.

How's your hand?
My eyes healed nicely.
How's the time pass by without me?
I hope this hurts like hell, cause why should you be fine?

i love cauterize, and i think i may have to get their new album, which i didnt realize was out. i have been real out of the loop for cds coming out. shit. first spill canvas, now cauterize. next you'll be telling me thursday has a new album. well they don't, i checked. but not their site, so they could. fuck, today just will not end. it past alright till about two. then it just stopped. and its felt liek at least four hours have goen by, but its just barely been one. i hate when this happens. th only thing that is redeaming, is that i finally remembered to brign new cds to work, so now i have some alkaline trio and such to listen to. its excellent. anyways. im going to go check the same four sites i check, see if they've changed in the past day or so (i doubt they have, but i dont want to type into this. really)

"He represented a God to me
That was so beautiful that I'd do anything for him.
I'd do anything for God.
Even murder, if I believed it was right.
How could it not be right if it is done with love?
I have no remorse for doing what was right to me.
I have no guilt in me."

I've never been so happy to see a photograph of me
then when graced with your company.

i just went outside to go to the mailbox, and there was an enormous pile of leaves at the bottom of the steps that smelled like fall should. it was cool, and then i walked right through it, which was fun. anyways. im real bored right now. havent had much to do in the way of work today, so im takign it real slow, and taking an hours worth of work and stretching it to all day.

i was thinking about two things today. one was how come i never remember my dreams. i can usually remember that ive had one, but i never have a clue what the hell was happening in it. which sucks, cause my only memory of last nights was that it was fucked up, but real fun.

the second thing was from yesterday, when adam found my beer boxes of clothes in my closet. and he said people should sell clothes by the box. it would work to. they would all be one size fits all. the gangster box has baggy assed jeans, and a baggy basketball jersey. the gothic box also has real baggy clothes, but every thign is black, adn has chains and zippers where you really dont need them. the hipster box has tight ripped jeans, and a tshirt with a band name that isnt even a real band on it. so that, in case it becomes a band, said hipster can be all "i had their shirt before you even knew they were a band". i could probably think of more, but i dotn feel like it right now. so im going to go visit tim-tim.

ps. i really want to hear this song:

admit it -by- say anything

Well let me tell you this, I am shamelessly self-involved
I spend hours in front of the mirror, making my hair elegantly disheveled
I worry about how this album will sell
Because I believe it will determine the amount of sex I will have in the future
I self medicate with drugs and alcohol to treat my extreme social anxiety

will there ever be hope for a girl like you with me?

will there ever be hope for a girl like you with me?

so i realized two things today. first. i drink probably too much cofffee. its four thirty, and im on number five i think. now i cant say i know why its bad, but i cant imagine that much coffee in as many hours is a good idea.

second. people in toronto love to stare. again, i cant say its bad, cause i do it too. but it gets kind of annoying, cause everytime i go outside for a coffee, at least half the peopel stare at me as i walk by. this could be because i am usually playing with a lip or tooth piercing of sorts, or the love of peopel watching. one day, i think i am going to snap. i'll be walking and just start flipping these people off. id be all flip flip flip, fuck you homeles guy. fuck you hipster in the coldplay shirt. fuck you little kid with the skateboard. but the one person i wouldnt flip off, would have to be my favourite superhero cripple. i love her. but maybe she would feel left out, and take it as soem sort of reverse cripple-ism or something stupid like that, and start a flip war with me. that my friends, would make my day

If I had to choose a way to die

If I had to choose a way to die

The Spill Canvas - So Much

How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one

How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt

Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down

Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me

Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home

If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face

How does it feel?

I've saved some words I'd like to give to you

I've saved some words I'd like to give to you
They flew behind the plane for all to view
And it read in bold type -

It's my least favorite holiday
I think this time I'll stand up for myself
While you sit down

holy mother i am ready for the weekend. a week with all work, and sickness. not fun. at least with school i could have skipped out no problem. oh well, its friday now, and i get to go home and eat apple crisp and ice cream. mmm mm, i love it. though sunday is going to be wierd, gotta find a way to toronto, cause i dont really want to bring a car up for the week, it was a pain in the ass last year. but something will work out and hopefully my parents have a good trip. also hopefully they are going to cuba, because i want some romeo and juliets, delightful. but i'm at work now, and i want to leave, so im gunan finish soem shit, and try to bounce by two or three.

ps. accents are awesome, even if the people behind them are useless.

christ i hate fucking up

so i fucked up at work last week apparently. i blame a communication problem. its really no big deal, i just hate having to do the same thing twice. usually because i care even less the second time and end up fucking it up more. oh well.
i found out that this job plans on being done around christmas, so i either need to hope that they run late as always, or work on finding a new job. maybe i can still work for for these guys at a different place, thatd be hot. more hot if i got a raise. anyways, this isnt even interesting to me anymore, id not even post this, but i spent three minutes typing this garbage, you cant just throw that out.

i remembered something interesting to me. that huge number of concerts coming up. this shall be grand. senses fail, early november, say anything, and saves the day in detroit. hawthorne heights, and silverstein at the phoenix. kind of want to go to coheed, but its at the docks, which sucks madcore. gratitude at the el mocambo. also my american heart, and a change of pace at the el mocambo soon after. umm, ok, so i thought there were more. oh, and of course gwen stefani, ciara, and M.I.A, who could pass that up? me, i could, i'll download their music, but i will not pay for it.

hellish

dear phone on my desk,
stop fucking ringing, im not going to answer.
sincerly,
jay

so today is quite hellish, ive been coughing for pretty much all of it, which wouldnt be so bad if it was "cough" done. but its to the point where i cant breathe, and i nearly passed out when i went for a coffee. on the plus side when i try to make myself stop coughing i dry heave. wait thats not a plus. thats not a plus at all. oh well, i can only hope its done and gone by this coming weeked. anyways, if you want a recap of this past weekend, just go down an entry and read what jer hooked up. i could probably add some shit, but i really couldnt give half an ass right now. i only wish i could end this in a dave chappelle-esque way, raise hands, drop keyboard and walk away. just imagaine me doing that for me okay?

oh, ps. my comments are fucked i think. i have to find a way to make them not haloscan cause im sick of that shit.

WHOOPS!!!

Yeah...Jer here...somehow, someway, I managed to post my latest update on both my blogger and Jay's blogger here.....so....yeah...my B....so go ahead, read it here....or read it at my site....whatever....

I donno how I did this....

It's the weekend, eye for eye

It was a jam packed one at that. Basically Zip, Jay and I got the weekend started by crawling (the traffic was terrible) out to Barrie and catching Trouble With Ferguson playing at some church. It was fun, Zip broke his moshing cherry i'm sure. I also picked up the T.W.F. album and a t-shirt. So a decent night, although it was done early. So we went back to the home area after, dropped of Zip, then Jay and I hit up my place. TV was good, but I called it a night pretty quickly. I think Jay watched for quite a while more.
Saturday started out with a Mc Donald's mission before we hit the road to London.
about 1 1/2 hours later, We get to London and go to visit Matt. Lemme just say that Matt is definatly the kind of guy who is made to live with that special women, and make it feel very comfertable.
See, he lives with his girlfriend, and they both have seperate bedrooms, that was a shock! But they seem really happy, they got their nice place, and they got a cat, and the whole "marrage" thing going on, kinda funny really.
Anyhoo, It was great to see Matt again, although we never have a whole hell of alot to talk about, we are just such good friends that pretty much we don't need to talk, we know what's up.
So we had some burgers, watched some T.V. and then the family guy movie. Good times.
After that it was time to find Emma's place, which was really just down a major street from Matt. So that was easy.
Anyway, we met Emma's room mates and they are all really nice people, made you feel more welcome than most people that i've met. We hung out there till about 11:00, of course watching DVDs, and making a run to the LCBO and all that stuff.
We went to the Salt Lounge at 11:00. It was great, I drank alot, but didn't get drunk, it was weird, but who cares? I wish that would happen more often.
Anyhoo, we left there after maybe 2 hours....maybe...cause Jay was done.
The rest of the night was chillin and tons of jokes. A little bit of drama too, but that didn't involve me so i'm ok with that..........and other stuff too, mostly jokes at Jay's expense.
Then we woke up Sunday (not that I got a whole hell of alot of sleep). And just chilled with Emma for like an hour. Eventually everyone woke up (well, except Jay) and we all talked about the night we just had.
Finally Emma woke Jay, then after lunch we headed home.
To finish off my Sunday I took care of some loose ends that I had to for work, and went for a coffee with Zip, came home, watched some older Dave Chapelle. A stand up show he did in D.C., which was funny as hell!
Then I hit the sack.
I also got NHL 2006 last week. It kept me going while I was sitting around at home being sick, it's an awesome game, but I was so happy that Fallout Boy has a song on the soundtrack, cause I love them, and I love hockey, it's a dangerous combination really.

That's all....alow me to leave you with some Latefallen Lyrics, cause they are musical geniouses.

And our secrets line the sidewalks in high style

Shallow weaknesses underline

A need our intentions to be hidden in black light

Suddenly - Jupiter Sunrise

I'd really like to talk but they took away my tongue
and replaced it with a thousand lonely tears
I'm sorry about your dad, I wish he wasn't mean
I really wish I didn't remind you of him
I try my very best, but the devil owns my mind
and I haven't had the chance to show you who I am.

i had that dream again, where i was lost for good in outerspace

i had that dream again, where i was lost for good in outerspace

ahhh jacks mannequin.. i love you. on to other important things, the weekend before last, as jer said, was full of fall out boy, and ive had my fill of them for a while i think. but it was good. and then this last weekend i hit up some bonfire for a bit on friday, but left for adventures with arin and danielle to tim hortons and dairy queen and some random roads that i nearly got lost at. eventually we made our way back to the fire and chilled for a bit more, while arin went camera crazy with adam. the pics are somewhere here.
saturday hit up a bar, with zach, luke and jer. left that for timmies i think, then left that for bostons with emma, mike and charlene. overall pretty good night, i didnt feel like drinking much though, so that semi sucked.
sunday was the family dinner, so much turkey and pears and pie. yum yum. after that i went and chilled at timmies with adam and ox, damn those butter caramel things are delicious.
so i have to say for the record, that baseball can go to hell. first, i didnt get to see the o.c. on thursday because of it, and i was all "it better be on next week" then sunday, no family guy, and then monday, no prison break, and i dont get any of those shows till november. this is balls, cause those are the main three shows i watch, anything other than that i dont really care about. so yeah, this increases my hatred for this sport. i swear on my ovaries that one day, it will die.

Pete and I attacked.....animal crackers

Yeah it's Jer again...
Apparently Jay doesn't wanna tell you guys all about our pimp weekend that was Nintendo Fusion Tour weekend.....so if you wanna know more visit my blogger, Adam's LJ or Megan's LJ.

You won't be disapointed.

im cool too

hey guys, i can be cool to and post on my blog, yeah.. though i probably shouldnt have, since i have shit all to say. im just going to have to tell you all about my day. first off, it was hella hard to get out of my nice warm bed. but when i did i had to mission it to class, and just got real hungry real fast. i actualy got shootign pains in my stomache, that im still having right now, they're making me feel real sick. it sucks. school tomorrow is gunan eb weak, i have to stay for pretty much teh whole day and lay brick, i shoudl have doen more today, btu i felt sick, so i didnt. the only redeeming thing about today... is the O.C., im excited for that, it was real intense. Whoa, leah, from much music, is talking about her underwear or something. is it fair for me to say that i want to smack her for being a tease? anyways, im gunna go eat JELL-O, YAAAAAAY

well i figured since everyone is posting on jay's that its the cool thing to do, so here i am! wahooooooooooo! i have like a seventh sense for this bandwagon type stuff. anywa, i kinda noticed that no one came down for the bi-monthly pogue mahone trip. you bastards. oh well, if you can read english and use a mouse, click on the link to go to some of the funniest shit ever.



and i heard this really funny song by johnny cash the other day, about him stealing parts from his job at GM and making a car out of it. i'm very lazy so if anyone wants to find this song and send it to me, i would love it. its the funniest song ever, maybe except for foxtrot uniform charley kilo by the bloodhound gang. later kids

Enter UziSpray....

Say your prayers little one
Don’t forget, my son
To include everyone

This is the great UziSpray.

For those of you that don't know me... FUCK YOU! I aint tellin' you shit, motherfuck pig. Die nigga, die. I'll bust up all you bitches.

So I guess this is where I can talk about non-political and non-girl/beer related shit. hmmm... what to say...

uhhh. well this morning I got up at like 0655 which is kinda crappy cuz my train leaves at 0713 so I had to throw on cloths, put in contacts and jet out the door. The good news is that I made it (yay!) the bad news is that I had 0000 time to brush my teeth. But some extraordinary happened. Because I am the great and mighty Uzi what did I get handed to me by product promotion people (ppp for short) at Union station? Some of those new brush one the go things. You know those things that you put on ur finger and brush ur teeth with? Ya. Those things. So yes. I bet all of you were wishing that you was Uzi right about now. What power I wield.

yup, well that's my first post on Jason's "cracka ass" blog.

ho nosyaJ I tsomla togrof, uoy tnaw a edir emoh no yadirf? M'i gnikat ym elcycrotom ot krow.

Enter Jeremy.....

HEY!!!
This is Jeremy, making a special guest apperance on Jay's blog!
From now on i'll be posting on here too, cause for whatever reason Jay actually let me, not so smart of him.
So, there's not too much up right now, umm, this weekend shall be good...nintendo fusion tour on Sunday. Leegan coming into town for that, don't know who that is? Well....you're stupid then, cause I put that picture there for that reason!


Anyhoo, that's enough for now.
Come back and see what I say after Jay posts next...will I agree?
Will I make fun of him?
You never know.....

i am a soldier

i am a soldier -by- a love like pi

My mouth is a jail cell.
The secrets speak between the gaps in my teeth.
And even though they're dying young, pray for sunlight, pray for sunlight.

Wish my words came out less frantic and more romantic.
But these bathroom walls and the callused hands make me scream for sunlight, scream for sunlight.

When I say I'll be cavalier, I mean when you undress me I'll pretend not to care
because I am a soldier, yeah I am a soldier.

And I'll stare tight glimpse into space, while you're greedy hands
will take what they can get and all they get is me.

latefallen and corpse bride

last night jer and i hit up the bovine sex club to see latefallen for their cd release party. we headeddown about eightish, cause they were supposed to start at nine thirty and we needed dinner. grabbed subway for the third time yesterday, so good, chicken bacon ranch, on italian herb i think. anyways, then we continue to walk down queen looking for this place, when jer stops and turns around and goes in this sketchy resteraunt, i follow figurign he knows somethign i do not. well, the band was in there having dinner, so we chilled with them for a bit and had a beer. then we chilled outside for a while but heard the opener come on, so we went in. it was pretty good, considering i knew pretty much none of the songs by either band. anyways, now im out to see the corpse bride.

the used pics

i dont know what its called, or how it goes

i dont know what its called, or how it goes

so i went to the horseshoe last night with zip, jimmy and adam, to go see the rockers in the photo below. for those of you who dont know, they are trouble with ferguson and you should check them out for serious. got to hear some new stuff from them, which i tried to capture on my phone, but it just didnt work, but adam got a buttload of pictures, so thats cool. ive also got some pictures from the used, alexis, and underoath show, but i need a couple more from megan before i post any, so i really gotta get my hands on those. anyways, im at work, im real tired, and id much rather be back in my bed, but im gunna grab a coffee, and hope that helps for a while.

lets go all the way

fuck its been a while. my week at the cottage was alright, went out on a boat a few times, chilled, chilled some more. partied some times since my last post, got off my face drunk at two of them. simmons, and camping at albion hills, good times. umm what else, school started, its decent, two days a week, mostly practical classes, so i really can only show up for a few hours each day. work also re-started, new ones kind of boring right now, just cause i dotn really know whats going on. and the old guys dont need me too much anymore, just a couple hours a day max. so that sucks, cause those guys were funny as hell. i do have to say though, that the highlight of the last however many days, was the concert i went to on saturday. the day was a whole mess, but overall, nearly the best.
started when jer and i hit up another ghetto place for breakfast, which was so fucking delicious. then we killed time waiting for megan and lee anne to call, but we got bored off our asses waiting, so we just headed to london at like noon. got a little lost for like five minutes, but got back on track, and still had time to kill, so we hit up some real shitty mini golf place. the "carpet" was all worn out and crap, so it kinda sucked, but it killed time. and there was one hole with a car you had to go through, and another one with a waterslide type thing i fucked around on for a while. finally we met up with megan and lee anne at the venue, and waited for a while out front, but we got to see quinn and brandon, who told me that we'd get about an hour and a quarter out of them, with two songs for an encore, and that we would get blue and yellow in there somewhere, so that was cool. then we headed in and saw day of contempt, then underoath, who were spitting all over the place, and some security guy got all pissy about it cause he was a little girl. the best part of their set was when they got all the bitches in the nosebleeds to rush the stage, security was going nuts trying to stop them, but there were to many. then alexis hit up the stage and rocked out, played a new song "charlie sheen vs. henry rollins" i think. the only shit part about their set was accident, and that was the crowds fault for messing up their part. we got to hear accidents, 44 caliber love leter, that girl possessed, white devil, hey its your funeral mama, no transitory, get fighted, and of course happiness by the kilowatt. then we got the used, they played so many good songs, i cought fire, take it away, all that ive got, listening, sound effects and over dramatics, hard to say, im a fake, taste fo ink, box of sharp objects, blue and yellow. and probably some other ones i dont even remember. then it was over and we went outside to wait for the bands to leave the venue. saw dallas green come out, and he reminded me what book it was that inspired happiness by the kilowatt, which i looked for downtown today, but the place i checked was sold out of kurt vonnegut books. finalyl at liek two am bert came out for photos and me, jer, lee anne, and megan all got a pic with him. over all and excelent night, except for those crazy bitches that were beside us, we all wanted to hit them at one point. oh well. im out, my hands cant type coherantly anymore.

she found a book that writes itself

she found a book that writes itself

today at work i went through a pile of shit thats been on my desk for a while now. only got about halfway through it though, hopefully finish it up tomorrow. but about halfway through today i left my job to go to another one, same jobsite, but different people, and got trained to take over soem chicks job who is leaving. this took honestly, an hour. her job is pretty much mine, with a couple things added, but a couple things taken away. and she probably makes at least double what i do. oh well, as long as im kept busy for the next few months im happy, cause schools only two days a week.
then after work today i went out to the perogie monroe. not actualyl called that, but whatever, its an irish pub. but i didnt understand why they were playing nelly "hot in herre" on the stereo. confused me a lot. i had a decent chicken pot pie, and a few beers, company paid again, so im not complaining. and i get another meal tomorrow, should be good.
saturaday i head to a cottage for a week. with the family, probably gunna be semi shitty, but whatever its free, and im gunna drink a bunch. i crave going out on a boat and just chilling.
again i dont really feel liek putting more shit in here, so maybe i'll do a lyric and be done-ski.

And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain..
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.

its just a matter of "she's so sweet"

its just a matter of "she's so sweet"

im pretty effing bored right now, so i decided that im gunna work on making a stencil for spray painting a design on one of my jackets, but i cant decide what to put on it. so far its either gunna be a band, or jack, from the nightmare before christmas. its probably gunna be jack, since ive got four hundred band shirts already. actually like twenty something, but still, enough.
anyways, i tried a white nectarine today, they are frikkin wierd. i cant tell if i like them or not, im just going to have to keep eating them till i decide.
its time for some BREADucation. toasting bread does not affect its nutritional value. whole wheat & grain breads have more fibre then white bread. well, its a good thing it tells me that after i ate a whole loaf of white bread. christ. oh man, one of these things is real stupid. "for a crispy crust, place bread in oven at 350F for 4 minutes, for a crispy crust. i guess they really want me to know that my crust will get crispy.
well, i really dont feel like writting in this bitch right now, but i had some stories for all two of you. first one, is that i took out the lip ring, i miss it terribly. i took it out cause i went home, adn when i left i tried to put it back in, but it was such a mission just to get it in, i knew that after a week with my parents it definitely would not be going back, so i just took it back out. it really sucks, and im going to have a scar anyways, cause thats what skin does, it scars, so i think i may have to get it repierced someday. even if im like forty. i'll do it as my midlife crisis. haha.
hmm, whats another story.... oh, im checking out motorcycle insurance prices, because i am hoping to get my bike back from the mechanic on friday, then go for a cruise. im excited. i really hope its done. i also really need to find my cheques so i can pay the guy. fuck.. i hate money. i should have so much right now, after working all summer. but i somehow managed to spend a LOT of it. it really sucks, im so glad ive got this job in the fall. it better be alright, and last for a decent amount of time. it should, since ive got a few sites interested in a part time worker. if not, imma have to work for jer, and be his coffee bitch, hahaa. well, im out, heres some "boy brushed red living in black and white" -by- underoath for yous all.

can you feel your heart beat racing?
can you taste the fear in her sweat?
we've done this wrong we're to far gone
these sheets tell of regret
i admit that i'm just a fool for you
here is where we both go wrong

and i walked alone

and i walked alone

i had one crazy mother of a weekend. thursday i went out after work with my bosses for a celebration cause we got occupancy permits for work, which is a good thing. so we got pretty liquered, then one guy left, adn the rest of us got even more liquered then stumbled home.
friday i show up to work, and apparently my eyes are extremely blood shot, to the point where the guy who left first says to me "jay, shut your eyes, or you'll bleed to death". so yeah, friday took forever, but i got to leave early so that was nice. i got to georgetown and wondered for about three hours before hitting up a party, which was supposed to be a pre drinkign party for me. but i left that one to go to a field party, that was fucking over by the time we got to it. it was real gay. so jer and i headed back to his place and crashed.
saturday headed to windsor, had some car trouble but made it alive. then we headed to detroit to some mall, and had more car trouble, in a totally different car. fixed that, wandered teh mall, realized it really sucked, and headed to the duty free. crossing the border shoudl have been liek five minutes max, but its was liek half an hour, because we had to pay tax on all our crap. those custom bitches are cunts, i woudl not be upset if they all died of some horrible disease, like.. yeah i dunno, id say cancer, but thats been done to death... (get it) ahah. oh i am a horrible person.
anyways, we get back to mikes an dplay a lot of pyramid, then lee anne and erin show up and we head to the loop. we all get pretty liquered and chill out to some decent music that was a little fucked at the beginning. we end up leaving there at closing time, i played in some puddles, and we chilled in megans car for a while. then i got restless and sat on teh edge of teh fifth floor of the parking garage. but since i was buzzed i thought i woudl fall, so i decided to just go to the roof and lean on the edge as opposed to sittign on it. now imagine this. tenth floor, raining, at three a.m. with the city skyline.... fucking awesome. so after a bit of that i got bored by myself, so i got megan and jer and we headed to timmies. tehn we went back to teh roof, and i left them and got the car. i dropped lee anne and megan off and jer and i headed back to mikes in the hopes of more partying. luke was pretty much the only one up, cause hes a trooper. had a drink and crashed pretty fast.
sunday wake up on a tile floor, real cold, and get up in the hopes of some food. but we didnt end up going for food till like two i think. it was real good though. then back to georgetown quickly, and zach gave me a ride to toronto on his bike. which i have to admit, was semi terrifying at first, cause i think zach hasnt had a passenger on the highway before. btu then i was like "fuck, this is awesome" also, zachs bike had some balls, which made me really want to get my more powerful bike out with a single rider. oh man. it will be the death of me. and yeah. that was teh weekend. real busy, lots of alcohol, liek two meals. but a hell of a lot of fun.
i just hit up refried beats, my local used cd shop, and picked up finch's "say hello to sunshine, hidden in plain view's "life in dreaming", jupiter sunrise's "under a killer blue sky", and you will know us by the trail of dead's "worlds apart", and lastly, mae's "the everglow". im real impressed by mae so far, the only one ive listened to. anyways, ive typed enough for now. so im off to cook some bacon, throw it on some pasta and call it a meal.

the used, alexisonfire, underoath.. holy sexy show batman!

the used, alexisonfire, underoath.. holy sexy show batman!

i figure i should probably put some something here. il start with my again cravign for pie, i have one in the fridge, but im so full from bread and pasta, if i were to even look at it, i would explode of goodness. yeah. it was good food. im also craving some more wasaga or elora or sauble or something, pretty much a hot day with a beach, and loads of water. so when i was in dominion today i realized what my new addiction is, it is scope. its just real good, but the orange doesnt burn like the peppermint or cinnamon. but they're all good. i realyl have no actual stories for this. maybe i will recount the past few weeks. elora camping, elora diving, wasaga, bleed the dream, thrice, hawthorne heights, my american heart, starting line, fall out boy, saosin, senses fail mosh pit area. umm yeah. my love of concerts has been brought back. i have been in withdrawl. but now its overload, with the one up top. a possible moneen and rufio one. bleed the dream in sept i think. also a battle of the bands which nicole told me about tonight. on a side note, cold food (mushroom chicken pasta) isnt as goodas it sounds. and yes, im still eatign my dinenr even though im so full. and im beginning to wonder how long i could make this thing go before i actually run out of mindless crap to type that liek two people will read. i feel like writting a story. but i dotn knwo what about. maybe it can be about me, and my adventures that i will never have. like drivign to ohio, and getting there, and searching for hawthorne heights, but realizing after the fact that they had come to toronto for a show at the pheonix. my my, this is long. im gunna go bugger off. (bugger is slang for go do something more fun then this was, but still not very fun)

(this quote is so good, im not gunna shrink it)

I change but stay the same.
I'll paint your picture and I'll leave it on a wall.
I'll make you a melody, and I'll sing it when you call.

i just ate half of an apple pie

i just ate half of an apple pie

1. They carved a message deep within our broken hearts that failed to mend:
Make out kids never had a chance to be best friends.
2. I'm going nowhere fast, It could be worse
I could be taking you there with me
3. I'd rather open up this casket, and jump inside
Sleep under the stars, with you tonight
I'd rather be below, than ever be without you
Your funeral can make it hard to breathe
4. You stand alone, yeah that's the deal
You have yourself to count on cause no one really cares
5. so let me get this straight
say now you loved me all along?
what made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
6. I'm in a car underwater with time to kill,
thinking back I forgot to tell you this:
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me,
what hurts more is I would still die for you.
7. You always had a way with words
In letters back and forth we'd send
Back when we were foolish kids
The world was only as big as a heart
8. Kids are screaming at the tops of their lungs
While they're pointing their fingers like they're loaded guns
Behind curtains and backdrops
The fire sparks
If the bridges burn, we all fall down
9. Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
10.I thought she was perfect
she thought I was perfect too
perfect until she found someone new
now I'm stuck here watching her
I can't take this abuse

and now theres only a quarter of that pie left. so same type of deal, but you have more selection. guess the songs, without using google, or go for google if you want to be a penis pump. (heres a hint, go buy warped 2005 cd, number five is the only one that isnt from it i think.)

drowning in my sleep

drowning in my sleep

fuck, i am so incredibly sore, i went camping thursday night. quite a mission to find the place but we managed. chilled out hardcore that night, then went cliff diving (oh so fun) on thursday. we just did the mid size jumps you're allowed to do. but then friday night, after about eight hours of waiting, more people showed up and we had a drinking night. again fun stuff. then saturday more cliff jumping, but this time more intense. a lot of dives, and also some jumps maybe tenn feet shorter then the tallest ones. then back to georgetown for a poker night, i crashed on a couch, and my neck got seriously fucked up (part of the reason im sore, the other being the dives) then this morning we get up to go to georgeview for some breakfast before heading out to kaitlins cottage or someplace, and find out it is next week. hellish, also georgeview was packed so we went to ares, also packed, but we were to lazy to try and find another place. but breakfast was good. and we ended up going to toronto and watching american beauty and going swimming. all in all, one hell of a busy weekend, and so much fun. i definitely wish i had gone to bed instead of writting this though. fuck. and the music is off right now, so no lyrics. withdrawl...., worst. oh well.

I will now bring new meaning to the word alone

I will now bring new meaning to the word alone

i figured i should maybe update, since its been over a week. i ended up going to wasaga, it was wicked awesome. im thinking i am going to have to find another galaxy diner, so good. but sunday was hellish, we had a family thing, forty of my aunts, uncles cousins, blah, blah, please just let me die... works been unusually slow this week, i've honestly had to make maybe an hours worth of work stretch over the course of three days. yeah. i would think its awesome, but after a couple hours of it, i just want to leave and accomplish anything. what i have accomplished this week is finding some wicked music that i havent listened to in ages on my computer. sword-by- rilo kiley, flagpole sitta -by- harvey danger, boys of summer -by- ataris, crash into me -by- dave matthews band, freshmen -by- verve pipe. so many good songs i'd nearly forgotten about. im still pretty upset with myself tonight though, im missing a show at the kathedral because...... i have to do laundry. yeah, i was supposed to do it last week, but i hate it.. so i never did, and now im missing a concert for it. hell. oh well, WARPED in something like seventeen days. pretty stoked for that. also a show sometiem soon hopefulyl at the elmacombo with late fallen and out of your mouth, so says jer. OH, is anybody up for buying a condo in toronto.. that i may live in, for cheap? the pace im in is gunna be so tight come september, also then i would actualyl be fully disconnected from my mommy and daddy and i can get my snakebites done. i think that is teh final decision, i was stuck between snakebites, a labret in the middle, or the venoms, but new tribe doesnt do venoms, and i dont really like the middle lip with a ring, but i like the snakebites with rings or barbells. its incredibly effing hot, i think at least. fuck anyone who doesnt, ya better rec-o-nize. anyways, im out, ive typed to much for just one sitting without a purpose. fuck, a lyric... lets see what i can whip up. (my internet is so slow.. i want to hurt it) alright, so im stuck between two songs, can you guess what they are without google?

1.
Now, I cannot stop this
Pure emotion
Falling from my eyes
You are vindicating
Liberating
Saviors of my soul

2.
This is it, baby brother,
One more breath together
We're almost under water
Where is mom?
I miss her.

i just want to wake up in somebodies arms

i just want to wake up in somebodies arms

holy eff, i crave wasaga beach. im hoping to go saturday, but like a lot of my plans lately, this will probably fail. i really hope not, but the odds are stacked against me. so yeah, i need to make this happen, if it comes to me going by myself, i think i just might. anyways, about maybe half an hour ago it started raining, and not even drops really, it was actually, as if a lake just dropped onto toronto, for about half a second. by the time i made it from my window to outside, it had stopped. i was so excited, but NO. stupid rain. curse you. anyways, im listening to the new alkaline trio, its actually pretty good, its pretty much any one of thier older albums, but matured just a very tiny little bit. they still have the wicked one liners, or six, that got me hooked on them in the first place. and their rita rudner type way of singing them. if you dont get that reference, start watching just for laughs, shes on it at least once a week.
anyways, i really dont want to be writting in this now, it took me nearly half an hour just to get this far. so here's a quote from "time to waste" by alk3.

They salivate in hunger.
For you, and everything they need
To make a death complete,
Completely unnatural and salvation lies
Behind those dead eyes
that watch you while you sleep every night

your answer's always 'maybe'

your answer's always 'maybe'

so charlene has failed me. we were gunna go down to newtribe tonight and get pierced, but no. she had to stay home and help her parents pack, whch i guess isnt her fault, but still. i really want my lip done. i almost went down anyways and got it done, but shes gunna come down tuesday, so i think i can wait. should make it more exciting i guess.

so i really feel like i have accomplished nothing at work lately. i keep showing up, and i keep not doing a hell of a lot. oh well, our computers are still sorta down so thats the main reason. and apparently we get a new guy on monday, so i gotta step it up and be the good worker. hes one of the head honchos kids, so he'll probably be useless, like the guy we had last year, oh your god. max twenty three hours a week. funny, but useless. anyways, i crave a coffee, french vanilla to be exact, so im gunna go get one.

We've rehearsed our lines clear and loud,

but the cue never came and the lights,

they never went down.

So we're passing the time, while time passes us.

The fast lanes a term never applied to us.

Without a dime to my name,

or a prayer in the world.

I walk out the door.

Destination anywhere but here.

Away from you.

my moves will be so hot you'll have to stand under the fan

my moves will be so hot, you'll have to stand under the fan

yet another waste of a day, i get to work at regular time, and sit for an hour cause the system is still down, go for coffee for an hour, come back, put some shit in a filing cabinet, then go for another coffee for an hour, come back around noon, play minesweeper for an hour or two, go for another coffee, leave work at three ish. and i only paid for one coffee and i got paid to be there. such a waste. i would have accomplished so much more with that time.

anyways, im going to get my lip pierced on wednesday. should work out nicely. i tried to do it myself today, but it just didnt work. fucking needle wasnt as the same guage as the barbell i had. oh well. two more days and i dont have to care. im kind of wondering what im going to want next. if its nose, can someone hit me? i dont like when guys have that. something about it just isnt right. i may go for "venom" or just a surface tongue peircing. or maybe turn the lip into a snakebite. thatd be cool. dont know yet. oh well. im out to go get a coffee or something.

Let's call this the quiet city:

Where screams are felt as a wave of stoplights

Drive through the streets as gunshots punctuate the night

The sides we take divide us from our faith

And the morning dove gets caught in the telephone wire

Asleep you set the fire in your own house

And the night was a knife that cut

And I'm paralyzed

Cross out the eyes

Blur all the lines

Tearing this canvas from the wall

curse you jer! (and bran muffins)

curse you jer! (and bran muffins)

FIRSTS:
First job: a paper route in like grade four
First screen name: i.. dont do that dance, its just jay
First self purchased tape: probably.. prozzak, or some shitty music like that
First funeral: my dads grandmother is the only one ive ever been to I think..
First credit card: my lovely visa, its served me well
First love: uhh, music comes before any body (I know that’s not a real answer, but fuck, what do you want me to do? Lie?)
First enemy: id have to say garrett.. but it was more of an extreme hatred for a while
First big trip: florida, or mexico, I forget what one was first
First concert: alkaline fucking trio bitches

LASTS:
Last big car ride: to toronto.. on Sunday, which I do every week
Last library book checked out: don’t know, the last book I bought was timequake by kurt vonnegut, pretty weird book if you ask me
Last movie seen: mr. And mrs. smith
Last beverage drank: french vanilla
Last food consumed: a shitty chicken burger from mcdonalds, so disgusting
Last phone call: jer, to tell him I couldn’t get tomorrow off of work
Last text: helena, telling me about a party that I couldn’t even get to
Last CD played: senses fail – let it enfold you
Last annoyance: new tribe closing at eight and not nine
Last soda drank: dr pepper, I dont know when, but that’s all I drink
Last ice cream eaten: vanilla
Last time scolded: umm, probably when I got the eyebrow ring, and that wasn’t even scolding, more of a “we don’t like it”
Last shirt worn: moneen
Last website visited: www.questionablecontent.net

I AM: at home
I WANT: Insurance on my bike
I HAVE: nothing to do right now
I WISH: I had my tattoo
I HATE: when plans fail misserably
I FEAR: I wont get any cigars from cuba next week
I HEAR: jakalope
I SEARCH: mostly lyrics
I WONDER: what is going on this weekend
I LOVE: music
I ACHE: not right now, earlier this week I did, stupid sleeping in a car
I ALWAYS: listen to music
I AM NOT: the pimp I wish I was
I DANCE: horribly
I SING: drunk mostly
I CRY: never
I WRITE: at work
I WIN: nothing
I LOST: my blue sharpie
I NEED: a job in the fall
I SHOULD: put gratitudes cd onto my computer

YES or NO
YOU KEEP A DIARY: had a journal, havent touched it in ages
YOU LIKE TO COOK: always
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: not that I can think of, secrets suck
DO YOU...HAVE A CRUSH: nope
WANT TO GET MARRIED: someday
GET MOTION SICKNESS: no
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: definitely not
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: yeah
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: love em, but we never get them in decent weather
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: “do you… current hair colour” what the hell. Its black
EYE COLOR: natural, brown. with contacts, green today
FAVORITESNUMBER: 13
COLOR: blue
DAY: friday
MONTH: june I guess, just cause it’s the start of summer
SONG(S): you do not get one song, not even one artist. But to start: senses fail, spill canvas, gratitude, the used, my chemical romance. And so on…

PREFERENCES
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: chocolate milk (i dotn understand why there is only one preference)

IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? Yeah, I helped some lady carry her baby and carrige up and down some stairs at yorkdale
BOUGHT SOMETHING? A bunch of clothes
GOTTEN SICK? yeah
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yes
SAID I LOVE YOU? no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
TALKED TO AN EX?: no
MISSED AN EX?: no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: no
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: no
MISSED SOMEONE? no
HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no

WOULD YOU EVER...
Eat a bug?: sure
Bungee jump?: sure
Kill Someone?: if I was a hitman, haha, that would never happen
Kiss someone of the same sex?: I dont plan on it
Parachute from a plane?: sure
Walk on hot coals?: I do in shoes all the time..
Go out with someone for their looks?: itd probably be a factor
Be a vegetarian?: definitely not
Wear plaid with stripes?: why not
IM a stranger?: sure
Sing Karaoke?: get me drunk and I’ll sing to anyone apparently
Get drunk off your Ass?: yeah
Star in a porn video?: no
Dye your hair blue?: why not, im doing red soon hopefully
Be on Survivor?: sure
Wear makeup in public?: sure, why not?
Not wear makeup in public: it tends to be the norm
Cheat on a test?: I have, and will probably do it again come december
Make someone cry?: to be an ass, no.
Date someone more than 10 years older than you?: no
Stay up all night? sure

Hers were green like July

Hers were green like July

A Scale, A Mirror, And Those Indifferent Clocks - Bright eyes

Here is a scale. Weigh it out and you will find, easily, more than sufficient doubt that these colors you see were picked in advance by some careful hand with an absolute concept of beauty. They are smeared and these blurs come in random order to color the eyes of your former lovers. Hers were green like July except when she cried they were red. Now I know a disease that these Doctors can’t treat. You contract it the day you accept all you see is a mirror and a mirror is all it can be. A reflection of something we’re missing. And language just happened, it was never planned, and it’s inadequate to describe where I am in the room of my house where the light has never been waiting for this day to end. And these clocks keep unwinding and completely ignore everything that we hate or adore. Once the page of a calendar is turned it’s no more. So tell me then, what was it for? Oh tell me, what was it for?

gotta give props to zach, happy twentieth, that was a pimping party man. we gotta do it again for jers in a few weeks.

your the brightest star tonight

your the brightest star tonight

saw mr. and mrs. smith this weekend. gotta say, it is pretty sweet, so many guys died. haha. i liked the way it kind of jumped forward through time the way it did to tell the story. worked well. so today at work, it was like four hundred degrees in the office. which hella sucked, but it is just about to rain hardcore here. i've been waiting for this for a good week now. i dont know why, but rain is so fun. but so many people hate it, so.. to hell with you guys. anyways, it started now, so im gunna go outside.

There are words carved in my chest
And they said...
"Could somebody show me the kind of affection
That you only see in the movies,
you know what I mean, you know what I mean"
I will suck the elixir from your fingertips
Until I feel my head start caving in
My mouth will overflow with your evil soul
And I'll be convulsing for days in this hole
Bubbling at the lips that you used to love to kiss

now available on dvd and for psp

now available on dvd and for psp

yeah, so i heard that on some commercial adn i was like "WOAH, for psp, what the fuck is this shit" movies being released just for that peice of crap? christ. anyways, im lovign this song "so much" by the spill canvas. seriously. heres a qoute to convert all you non believers.

Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home
If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face

man alive, i could listen to that song for three days straight, then id just be like "christ i am sick of this song, why did i listen to it for three days straight, theres so many other good songs, i just ruined this one" anyways, my fingers are tired of typing incoherent words to you. I'll see you all back here on Friday for a comic that is not only funny, but involves themes of punk girls sans clothing. OH THE EXCITEMENT. haha

sweet marie, there's a hole where your heart should be

sweet marie, there's a hole where your heart should be

just got back from a "sub contractor appreciation night" with work, it was actually pretty interesting, at first i was like "crap, i know like two people... i'll just go get a beer now.." but then later i was actually talkign to some of the people i know, and some i dont, and was all like "hey, lets go get a beer". yeah, open bar, and free food. makes for a good night. learned a bunch about the trades we use at work too which was cool. so that was tonight, last night i went and visited my grand parents in burlington, because it was my dads birthday, that was interesting too, my uncle was there which always makes for a fun but awkward time. my weekend was actually pretty eventful, went to bostons, worked, went to a party. been pretty busy lately, but i get to ctch up on my "lazing" this coming weekend since zach and jer are busy, and i probably will end up just chillin at home or at a movie or something which is alright still. anyways, ive got some serious need for speed catching up to do. it was the perfect night and you had to ruin it with a kiss. pull out the hurse, im leaving.

its not like i think about you constantly.. so maybe i do

its not like i think about you constantly.. so maybe i do

chillin out at work right now, its so nice out, i wish i could have a barbeque at my place, stupid condo rules. a nice steak with grilled potatoes and veggies.. oh your god, that sounds delicious right about now. then again so would just about anything, im so hungry. ugh. i need food, i might just have to stop and get some street meat on my way home. one more hour. good stuff. oh, i watched this seinfeld thing last night, so funny. that guy is a genious. i forgot that it was on though, i was about to go to bed but i was flipping throught the channels first, and found it. it was worth the lost sleep, though i definitely felt it today. doesnt help that i went to the gym yesterday either, made me even more tired, and sore. oh well. it killed an hour. anyways, i should do some work, seeing as i am being paid to be here right now.

ps. the link for game time -by- jlove should work now.

i traded my dreams for a bottle

i traded my dreams for a bottle

i dont really have much to say today, not that i ever do, but fucking whatever. couple songs i found the other day that are hilarious. one is taxi driver-by-gym class heroes
and the other is game time-by-jlove. (right click, save target as) game time is from mario or something and is just fuckign wierd. but taxi driver is a total tribute to pretty much the music i listen to. check the lyrics if you listen to it.

Why you cryin? theres no need
Just put on this coheed and fallout
Boy meets girl, jimmy eat world

i choose the fall out boy quote just for jer. haha. oh, and the comic i was telling jer about was dieselsweeties, which is off to the side in my links spot. and the one i was telling zach about, the nerd one, is ctrl-alt-del, friggen hilarious. anyways, thats all fro now i think, mayeb i will do another link crazy post soon.

dont you know that im an alley cat

dont you know that im an alley cat

at work right now, entering some shit into the computer. kind of tedious but oh well. im apparently going to be put in charge of a 300 thousand dollar job. so thats cool. hopefully i dont fuck it up, otherwise.. id be fired and id hate myself. but i got guys here to help if i need it which i will, which is cool.

right now im listening to name taken these guys rock. hardcore. i love it. but the one song i know from them they dont have on purevolume, kind of sucks, but what is on there im loving.

the answer of the day today is four thousand eight hundred and seventy three point two nine five eight square feet. rough estimate. haha. i need a hobby.

i have a witness

i have a witness

finally back in toronto, and making money at that, i like money, it makes me happy. anyways, this new job seems like it is going to be one big joke, pulled on me, all summer long. im going to keep working saturdays at the greenhouses for a while too, some extra spending cash to buy me breakfast at druxy's everyday. goddamn that food is good.

i will keep you in this kingdom, castle, cage
built by me, only for you
it will keep you safe from everyone but me
you're fucking all mine now

hate me, and i will love you for it

hate me, and i'll love you for it

can someone tell me why i never learn from my mistakes. christ i am sick of procrastinating. sure its all well and good for a couple months, but then you get one day of hell. mostly. in this case ive been procrastinating all semester, so the last couple weeks have been hell for the five projects ive had to hand in. im slowly getting through it though, but stopping to do this shit doesnt help. but the music does for sure. some cat stevens, reel big fish, armor for sleep, postal service, and then i turned seven, steel train, hidden in plain view, madison avenue, senses fail, and so many more. anyways, im off to try and get a bit further.

Paint my face in shades of blood and grey
and take the seat right next to me
But I should've known that you were a killer.
But now I'm dead.

Don't you know that
I always see you in all of my dreams?

mr jones strikes up a conversation

mr jones strikes up a conversation

a little quiz i got from zach, it is the perfect amount of creepy. click here to try it.

Wackiness: 70/100
Rationality: 36/100
Constructiveness: 48/100
Leadership: 56/100

You are a WEDL--Wacky Emotional Destructive Leader. This makes you a Anarchist.

You don't give a damn. When push comes to shove, you just forget about it--it's just not worth the heartache. What this means for others is that dealing with you can be aggravating, because they find they can't get you motivated about things they care about. What this means for you is that you are happier, calmer, and saner then they are on their best days.

You are near-immune to criticism, and those who know you well acknowledge and respect that. You may come across as lazy, but the truth is that you find little to get worked up about. Regardless, you have slews of friends, because they are fascinated by your world view, jealous of your lifestyle, and drawn to the fact that you are hilarious to be around.

You are a pillar in a sea of hot-bloodedness. You have a sweet tooth.

the bolded parts are parts i have been told about myself at one point or another. so i find this really wierd that soem quiz can pinpoint me so well with twenty questions. esspecially when a couple i didnt know the words, so i guessed.

i told her she wasnt going anywhere

i told her she wasnt going anywhere

saw sin city last night, it was so good. it definitely put all those other comic inspired movies to shame. thats right, fuck spiderman, and the hulk and such. it had so many cool shots in it, the way it mixed actors on the screen with comic drawing style. plus jessica alba is beautiful. which is an automaitc plus right there. i think im going to get it on dvd when it comes out. shoudl be sweet. anyways, the rest of my weekend was spent working like usual lately. i also worked on a project for school, i got most of it done, but i need to finish it at school, since i just dont have to tools to finish it.

I walked for miles on and on
Searching in vain
A voice in the dark
Calling your name

I wanted to believe
In more than I could see
Each breath I take
A leap of faith
Waiting to come down

i got an honorable mention

i got an honorable mention

bowled up a fucking storm last night. it was a blast, and i dont think i did that bad, considering i havent bowled in ages. and today im actually recovering from the flu and pink eye, so thats good. except i still cant find my fucking glasses, so i cant see shit. anyways, i have to do some laundry and get some work done on this estimating project, god its getting annoying.

I'll sit here with a smile and a match

I'll sit here with a smile and a match

jason is no longer poor, well not as poor. been listening to senses fail, and i have to say... its awesome. they rocked hardcore at taste last week, as did bleed the dream, but i only caught half of bleed the dreams set, so for that senses fail rocked harder. but i gotta go. i might finish this later but probably not.

Tell me your fantasies,
I'll make you believe,
That I really care.
I'll look into your eyes,
I'll tell you all my lies.

i watched the camera shoot this girl

i watched the camera shoot this girl

oh man, last night was so sweet. it was almost constant music because of the acoustic stage. gotta say, i like that idea, they shouldhave those at more concerts, even if its just local bands, at least its something to listen to while the main bands set up. i wish i had known more senses fail though, i only recognized like two songs. but they were good ones, so thats alright i guess. i picked up a bunch of free cds, and they rule. they arent even two song samplers either, well one is, but one has seven songs, and the other two have twenty i think. some good shit on them. well, i feel like im rambling, because i am, so i am going to fuck off.

So here I sit. Some years have passed
I say I don't but I miss her bad
I smell her in my sheets you see
Like she's sleeping next to me
She'll say
Jack, I'm leaving now
Don't you wait up for me
Cause better love I'm yet to see

and all i said was one word, change three letters, and it is love

and all i said was one word, change three letters, and it is love
and all i said was one word, change three letters, and it was love
and all i said were three words, change three letters, i hate you..

i have absolutley nothing to do tonight, im bored out of my mind, and it is only eight thirty. pretty much my plan so far is to just listen to music and.... yeah, thats as far as i got. and now that im thinking of stuff to do, im remebering stuff i was supposed to do today, but its now to late. i hate when that happens. oh well. that is my safety answer to anything. it usually works. and if not.. oh well.

if you are any fan of acoustic music, you should check out dane and the death machine. they are... orgasmic. i'm not gunna lie to you. give them a listen. they put up a bunch of new songs on this site for downloading, which im checking out right now, and im impressed. anyways, im gunna go and try to find something to do.

intoxicated, i... fucked all my senses

leave this long haired country boy alone

leave this long haired country boy alone

i spent the last week working for a renovation company. it was for school, we get a credit for doing it, so thats alright. but it was so hard to wake up that early. especially towards the end of the week, because of the fact that i was actually doing work, i was so drained, but also because all i was doing was insulation, so it started to get kind of boring. oh well. its done, and now im back to my three day weeks. ended the week with a poker night at laurens, that was wicked awesome, because i won. but we got busted the next day, well more adam then me, but it was still shit. needless to say, im back in toronto, because my parents didnt really want me home anymore, and i wanted to get out of there anyways. i think i'll take this week and work hardcore on some projects, i have two for my estimating class, one is due wed, the other one is just really major, i dont want to leave it until the last minute. i also have to spend some time looking for a job, im getting really strapped for cash, and its either work, or sell my bike. personally i would much rather work and keep the bike, since i havent even gotten in much riding time on it yet. anyways, i should work on some of these projects now, i already spent a couple hours watching dazed and confused today, its hilarious. a totally stupid teenage movie, but i loved it. i was in the mood for it. no lyrics for you today, since im listening to a cd for the first time, and i dont know any of them yet. anyways, back to me leaving.. bye

holy shit, a royal flush

holy shit, a royal flush

thats right, today in poker at school, we actually saw a royal flush, it was insane. would have been better if i had it, but i was knocked out of the game long before that. but a little bit before the game was over, a table near us jsut collapsed when a guy tried to sit at it, it was hilarious, he just stands up, red faced, and everyone is looking and laughing at him. oh man, im so glad i saw the whole thing. haha. anyways, im working on autocad right now, well, not really, but its due tomorrow, and i need to do pretty much all of it. damn. i was gunna do it sunday, but the disk i had it saved on fucked up, so i had to start over. plus adam came up and we picked up his new geeter, so hot, and called 911. it was a crazy day. anyways, i should get back to drawing.

i'm here today to share your fun but im sorry darling, theres nowhere for you to run. your friends here tell me you like big tits, and there all about little ones, so try these ones for size, now will they do? now are these boobaly-woobaly macaroonies big enough for you? now there's no need darling to be so shy rub your hands up and down my thighs.....

its no one that anyone would know about

its no one that anyone would know about

had another night of poker with zach last night, but jer decided to join in, it was intense. also we went to some rock and roll bar place, it was alright. i think it helped that we had started drinking before we went. overall a decent night, i think it helped that i didnt lose at poker. i actually broke even, havent done that in a while. It's my life, it's my knife, it's my wrist, let's kiss, make up break up and break down. holy fuck i love this guys music. markb is my hero, ahah. check him out.

She kisses me and says,
"Don't tell me you're telling anyone about this,
Don't you kiss and tell,
Cause I get hell and my friends
Won't talk to me" and worst off
It's the same on my side

zachs guest post

yo yo yo, this is zach sending out a big shout out to the

G

block and a big shout out to the

N

intersection. right now im in the T dot at jays place. a long time ago my buddy jay and i were hitchiken down a long and loansome road. and he said 'play the best song in the world, or ill eat your sould' we me and jay looked at eachother adn said 'ok'. THE BEST SONG int ehw orld. once every hundred thousand years or so the moon doth shine and the grass doth grow.

so we are about to play poker. it is going to be fun im going to rape them for their cash hsac rieht rof meht epar ot gniog mi nuf eb ot gniog si it.

yep. wELL THIS IS DJ zACH SIGNING OFF. yOU STAY CLASSY sAN fRANSISCO.

you would always be there, well where are you now?

you would always be there, well where are you now?

well, i had a killer weekend. i think the highlight would have to be.. hmm, its so hard to choose, OH WAIT, it had to be monday, the day that lets me know this fucking weekend is over. holy christ. yeah thats right. oh well. i'll just go to sleep, and dream of something better.

So this is continuous happiness
You know, I always
Imagined it something more
Was this what we hoped for?
It's not what we hoped for!

i am drunk with lust tonight

i am drunk with lust tonight

You said you would be my dream
I could have you every night
and if, by morning, I'd forgotten you,
well, no big deal, it would be all right
you're the reoccurring kind.

this song is my goodbye

this song is my goodbye

holy flip, dallas green is amazing. he told me what book happiness by the kilowatt was inspired by, but i fucking forget now, the author is kurt vonnegut, so i guess i just have to read all of his books now. dang. oh well, apparently hes a really good author. but yeah, sourkeys, and junction opened for him, and they were so good. also raising the fawn opened, but again, i was not too impressed by them, i dont even know why, i just dont like their sound. oh well, overall, it was an awesome show. and thats all, because its three in the morning, and my eyes are burning from the contacts.

oh god, please don't tell me this has been in vain.

some names have been changed
to protect identities of the innocent

so just sit back and pretend that this one is
about some other friend...about some other friend

so you and me sat down at some diner in midtown
and you could hear the conversation from the table over
talking seeds and soil, trucks and lawnmowers

and it’s easier in nighttime when you had too much whiskey,
maybe too much wine
and you wake up in the morning and you have to look at him
so you stare at your spoon, your upside down reflection

oh yeah.

april fifth- that blasted day
when you turned your head around
like the girl on the plane here
like freddy said in the hall of red

so why’d you have to get out
and put your coat on?
yeah, why’d you have to get out
and put your coat on?

yeah why’d you have to get out
and put your coat on?

try something different today, kill yourself

try something different today, kill yourself

so today is bright eyes, pretty excited. also im excited because i heard this amazing song last night. its by mark vida, and it is.. incredible. everyone has to hear it. so i gotta find a way to put it on here. somehow. anyways, im off, i gotta get some groceries, and maybe alcohol.. yes yes.

i've got a way with you,
you've got a way with me..

always the red pillow

always the red pillow

so my entries are fucking up, because something is wrong with my computer. but oh well. i just had the best shower. fucking hot water, and nirvana playing on the radio. so good, makes me not care about anything else.

I was born in the wagon of a travellin’ show
My mama used to dance for the money they’d throw
Papa would do whatever he could
Preach a little gospel, sell a couple bottles of doctor good

just stay with me, lay with me now

just stay with me, lay with me now

but she didnt have the guts to leave
her son who was born on a day in the spring
grew up to respect her so much
for all that she had lost and for never giving up
for loving the mistake that she loved
well lady you deserve more than anyone i know

and when she says she wants someone to love...

and when she says she wants someone to love...

holy shit, its already sunday, where does the weekend go? spent thursday sleeping, and a bit of job hunting. friday, i think i slept all day. saturday, watched movies, did homework in newmarket. it was fun. and now sunday, slept through church. i was so fucking tired, i was up til i think four this morning. just couldnt sleep, so around three thirty i went and had a bowl of cereal. it was extremely satisfactory. but now i just want to go back to toronto. being there will make bright eyes seem that much closer. im excited. though ive never heard anythign from coco rosie, or tilly the wall. should be fun. its going to be over so early though. doors are at five apparently. i didnt know. i cant decide if i want to go to tegan and sara in feb or not though. but first its dallas green. so many good bands coming. rise against, closet monster, dillenger escape plan. i am going to have an anurism from this. AHHHHHHHH

i hope you know, she doesnt mean you

i'm california

i'm california



this is your one opportunity to do something that no one has ever done before and that no one will copy throughout human existence. and if nothing else, you will be remembered as the one guy who ever did this. this one thing.

what if?

what if?

i just discovered this wicked awesome band, the plain white t's, and ive listened to the six or seven songs i have from them over and over and over and again. so good. but before that, i went to school, but i missed my first two classes because i slept through my alarm, twice. the third class i got to, but i burned my hand on a drill, so now ive got this wierd line of burning on my middle finger over the knuckle, and it hurts like hell everytime i move my hand. oh well, at least i got something done today.

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you
If they don't have radios in heaven
here's what I'll do
I can bring my guitar when my time is up
and I'll play it for you

all the difference in the world is just a call away

all the difference in the world is just a call away

tomorrow is going to be hell. i havent woken up before noon since wednesday. and i havent fallen asleep before three am since tuesday i think. hellish. oh well, i had some fucked up dreams last night, but thats all i remember.

Here I am, writing another stupid song about you
I've got these 4 chords, stuck in my head
I know you don't deserve them,
You need a symphony instead

But at night time Is when we get to be alone,
just you and me
Up in my mind, is where I get to see your face

goodnight

goodnight

fuck you golden griddle, and fuck you red lobster.

I know you’ve played out everything in your mind
and now you throw it all away
a shattered memory that you would stay
through thick and thin with me
you’re giving up on me
and when you feel the pain
I’m wishing I could stay
how can I say I love you back
you never made me happy