Jer's-a-posting here again

YO!

It's a day late but still...HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAY!!!

WOOT!!!

....that is all

mmmmusic

So I have been listening to a lot of Coheed and Cambria, Jack's Mannequin, Taking Back Sunday, Jupiter Sunrise, Cauterize and the like, mostly because those are a few of the few cd's I have on my computer at work. Not that I am complaining, its just I fear I may be getting sick of it, I know it happened with The Used already. So yeah, I don’t really know why I’m writing this here, but whatever. I may have to bring back some old school favourites like Alkaline Trio, Brand New, Saves The Day, Thursday, Tegan and Sara, Thrice, maybe even Amazing Transparent Man. That would make me happy, so I’m going to have to track down those cd's and bring them in someday.
All this talk of music is really making me crave a concert. I had so many lined up but they failed me, or I failed me. My American Heart I decided to skip because I figured I would go to Cauterize two days later, only to find out cauterize was cancelled. Then Hawthorne Heights, after fear of it being cancelled from Baysides drummers death, gets back on track, and then sold out. I had totally forgotten about the whole "buy the tickets for the show" part of going to the show. Spill Canvas had some shows with Gratitude, but cancelled all dates but two, in America somewhere. Ull, I think I am just going to have to start my own band so I can have a concert whenever I want. So if you want to be in one, now’s your chance. I need a guitarist, bassist, drummer, keyboardist, vocals and... I can be tambourine or something.

My christmas list pretty much consists of this camera. I was suposed to ask for small stuff, but I already bought what i would have asked for, which would be these tshirts: Take A Hike, For The Birds, Life of Death, Flowers in the Attic (this one reminds me of moneen), Who I Am(personal favourite), My Pet Human. So I am pretty excited for the arrival of those. I wont be able to decide what one to wear first, so if you see me wearing six shirts, it means they came. Check out the site: threadless.

Last night I am walking home, and it’s a little chilly, so I decide to go to dominion again. So i'm walking through the aisles wondering what I should purchase, since I was kind of hungry seeing as I had only eaten a bagel all day. Then I turn down an aisle, feminine products to my right, cereals to the left, and I see this new cereal from oatmeal crisp, vanilla yogurt. It’s like two of my favourite flavours mixed into one, so I decide to give it a shot, and get a couple boxes (it was on sale too, SCORE). So I get home and start munching on it, and soon enough half the box is gone. So I feel; incredibly full for the rest of the night, and go to sleep, wake up late this morning and scramble for lunchy munchies, and I see the box. So I grab it and rush off to work. Well, now that box is gone and I have only one complaint, the fact that when I ate it, I was eating it sans milk. WHERE THE HELL IS MY MILK?

So there is a cauterize concert on Friday that I would very much like to go to, its in Brampton, so I don’t see much trouble there, its just getting people to go. Hmmmmmm, well, I think I will go with no one if it comes to it.

PS. Listen to Cauterize – Still Breathing

Tear me open at the seams.
Take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe, to breathe.

"I'm not cold," she said,
but she's shaking as she's lying next to me naked.
Pulled the hair back from her face to let that smile heat this place.
And this feels so far from real.
I'm lost and I love it.

I can't take it, if you're waiting.
I am ready to tell the world about a girl
who showed me love again for the first time.
And it's everything I dreamed of.

Tell me what you thought about when you were breathing oh so loud,
screaming oh so loud.
Tell me if this is real.
I need to know before I get too close.

So here we lie in this beautiful mess of tangled sheets and beads of sweat.
With my heart in your hand and my neck in the other,
should I be scared or should I come closer?
But it's still beating and I'm still breathing.
You haven't hurt me yet.

Morning always comes too quick when you're around, when you're around.
You leave me lying here so they don't find us out, they'll find us out.
Tear me open at the seams, take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe.

What a weekend. I finally got to see sleeper set sail. I think I’ve missed them twice before, once they were supposed to open for Dallas Green, and I forget the other time, but they were definitely in Toronto. Anyways, the concert was pretty rockin', Latefallens singer is the shit. Parts of his vocals reminded me Adam Lazzara even though the songs are not similar at all. Also sleeper set sail played lifejackets, which totally made my night. Chilled in London till the next day, got zero sleep, but I got to listen to an actual record, that was effing cool. Missioned it back to Georgetown and hit up a party. Well, like twelve people. But it was still fun. Got buzzed real easily for some reason, but it wore off after half an hour, so that kind of sucked. Now I'm bored and tired in Toronto, tried to play some xbox, got fed up. Tried to read, got through one short story. Listened to Underoath and Silverstien, such good records from them. mmm. Anyways, I am going to go to dominion, and get myself some sugarcrisp or something like that.

So apparently it’s November 11. Wasn’t there supposed to be a giant moment of silence or something? I almost forgot, but then our fax machine crapped out at 11:11 so I went to my computer and noticed the time. Naturally I thought of Constantine first. But then I remembered the poppy I found on the ground yesterday. So that was pretty cool, but I still think its odd how everyone, in my office at least, just continued about his or her business like normal. I was talking about this with my mom the other day, saying that this should be a day off, because a whole day to remember would be better, plus there’s no stat in November. She said that people wouldn’t remember and they would just take it as a day off to party. Though that may be true, when I get a free day off, I usually wake up and go "sweet shit i'm in bed, thank you -insert statutory holiday reason here-" as opposed to showing up to work like any other day, and just barely realizing its an important day.
Anyways, I just found out that the job I have to do is actually much simpler than I originally thought, so i’m going to go get that done so I can leave here today even earlier. Huzzah. I’m excited
ps. I got my jacks mannequin shirt in. i’m real happy. Except this one is missing the asterisk on the back. I’m just happy to have something to show my love for the mannequin.

How's your hand?
My eyes healed nicely.
How's the time pass by without me?
I hope this hurts like hell, cause why should you be fine?

i love cauterize, and i think i may have to get their new album, which i didnt realize was out. i have been real out of the loop for cds coming out. shit. first spill canvas, now cauterize. next you'll be telling me thursday has a new album. well they don't, i checked. but not their site, so they could. fuck, today just will not end. it past alright till about two. then it just stopped. and its felt liek at least four hours have goen by, but its just barely been one. i hate when this happens. th only thing that is redeaming, is that i finally remembered to brign new cds to work, so now i have some alkaline trio and such to listen to. its excellent. anyways. im going to go check the same four sites i check, see if they've changed in the past day or so (i doubt they have, but i dont want to type into this. really)

"He represented a God to me
That was so beautiful that I'd do anything for him.
I'd do anything for God.
Even murder, if I believed it was right.
How could it not be right if it is done with love?
I have no remorse for doing what was right to me.
I have no guilt in me."

I've never been so happy to see a photograph of me
then when graced with your company.

i just went outside to go to the mailbox, and there was an enormous pile of leaves at the bottom of the steps that smelled like fall should. it was cool, and then i walked right through it, which was fun. anyways. im real bored right now. havent had much to do in the way of work today, so im takign it real slow, and taking an hours worth of work and stretching it to all day.

i was thinking about two things today. one was how come i never remember my dreams. i can usually remember that ive had one, but i never have a clue what the hell was happening in it. which sucks, cause my only memory of last nights was that it was fucked up, but real fun.

the second thing was from yesterday, when adam found my beer boxes of clothes in my closet. and he said people should sell clothes by the box. it would work to. they would all be one size fits all. the gangster box has baggy assed jeans, and a baggy basketball jersey. the gothic box also has real baggy clothes, but every thign is black, adn has chains and zippers where you really dont need them. the hipster box has tight ripped jeans, and a tshirt with a band name that isnt even a real band on it. so that, in case it becomes a band, said hipster can be all "i had their shirt before you even knew they were a band". i could probably think of more, but i dotn feel like it right now. so im going to go visit tim-tim.

ps. i really want to hear this song:

admit it -by- say anything

Well let me tell you this, I am shamelessly self-involved
I spend hours in front of the mirror, making my hair elegantly disheveled
I worry about how this album will sell
Because I believe it will determine the amount of sex I will have in the future
I self medicate with drugs and alcohol to treat my extreme social anxiety

will there ever be hope for a girl like you with me?

will there ever be hope for a girl like you with me?

so i realized two things today. first. i drink probably too much cofffee. its four thirty, and im on number five i think. now i cant say i know why its bad, but i cant imagine that much coffee in as many hours is a good idea.

second. people in toronto love to stare. again, i cant say its bad, cause i do it too. but it gets kind of annoying, cause everytime i go outside for a coffee, at least half the peopel stare at me as i walk by. this could be because i am usually playing with a lip or tooth piercing of sorts, or the love of peopel watching. one day, i think i am going to snap. i'll be walking and just start flipping these people off. id be all flip flip flip, fuck you homeles guy. fuck you hipster in the coldplay shirt. fuck you little kid with the skateboard. but the one person i wouldnt flip off, would have to be my favourite superhero cripple. i love her. but maybe she would feel left out, and take it as soem sort of reverse cripple-ism or something stupid like that, and start a flip war with me. that my friends, would make my day